Saturday 9 July 2011

Amirul

Insan ni mmg special sgt lah dlm hati ak ni..Adanya dia dlm hidup ak mmg wat ak hepy sgt2...rsa mcm xnk lepaskan dia ni..mmg sayang bukan kepalang laahh *btol ke pribhsa ni..hentam jelah*. Aku mmg syg sgt2 kt dia..Aku pun twu dia syg kt ak jgk...Tp, lg byk y syg dia laahhh...Sayang ak x cukup untuk memiliki dia..So...dgn hati y hiba, dan gundah gulana ak lepaskan dia untuk bhgia disana...

Dekat 13 taon ak menanti, akhirnya dia dtg dlm hidup ak...mmg sentiasa ak msti tgk dia...klu pgi mn2 tgk pic dia pun jdilah...This precious gift came to my life on 10th MAY 2005 at 3.45pm...Since dat day...my life more meaningful...setiap ari bgun ja tdoq msti nk pluk2 n cium dia ni dlu...suka sgt bau bdn dia..busuk masam tp wangi...Day to day, dia ni smakin besaq...dah byk kerenah...dah pandai buat org gelak tgk telatah dia..dah pandai buat org geram ng dia...rsa cam nk picit2 ja pipi termbarm dia tu...dah la putis gebuss...wahh2..unlike me...HAHAHA...

Tapi, semua tu bertahan selama 1 tahun 5 bulan jaa..after dat, God take everything...He became a baby back...pada subuh 7 NOVEMBER 2006, dia kena serangan sawan..non stop for 5 hours..dari hosp Parit Buntar smpi ke hosp Taiping..Dia msuk ICU sbb doc nk psag mesin bntuan pernafasan n bg dia tdor...sbb klu dia sedar, sawan blik...

Ok...sedey.......first time masuk wad icu..dan y ada dlm tu org y pling ak syg...lg2 bila baby y bdn penuh dgn wayar+tiub berselirat kt badan dia tu is my bro...susah sgt nk byg time tu...he's not my little bro y sblom ni lasak sgt..active..suka panjat meja....

Amirul sudah x bergerak lg..dia malas...nak jd baby bru lahir blik...nak minum sendiri pun malas..so, doc msukkan tiub dlm idong dia utk msukkan susu..*bla dah jd nurse ni bru ak tw nm tiub tu, NG TUBE..nm penoh x tw nk eja..* 

Ok, doc ckp mcm ni kt mak ak, otak dia dah rosak terok sebabkan sawan tu..so, dia dah jd abnormal..dat mean, his brain not function well...he just lying on da bed...but, for me, its okay, as long as he still alive...thanx God...so, he's being the very malas boy...badan makin tembam..mata makin sepet...bila pegi hosp, mesti nurse egt dia tu anak cina...x cya tgk la gmba dia nnt...

But, biasalah, bila bdn dah x normal, byk penyakit nk dtg...paru-paru dia kn serang kuman...bongok btol la kuman tu...so, he's getting weak...doc pun dah msukkan antibiotic y pling kuat , tp bdn dia stil xleh fight...kuman tu dah bawa bala tentera dia ke paru amirul...so, doc decided to transfer him to icu utk tebuk tekak *tracheostomy, bru bljar last sem* utk bg dia senang nk nafas..but, my mom dah x sggup tgk mcm2 nk wat kt adek ak tu..dah la bdn smpi lebam2 kna cucuk...by dat time, everything juz leave to Allah...

Aku lah peneman setia mak ak kt hosp time tu...mmg ak xkan tggalkan dia...mak ak siap berdoa lg bg tuhan cpt2 ambik nyawa dia..sadis kan....tp lagi sadis klu tgk dia time tu...badan dah bengkak mcm nk pecah, mulut hidung smua kluar darah, nak bernafas pun t'cungap2...ohh god...time tu ak mmg dah xda perasaan apa2 melainkan biar je dia pegi...even, ak syg nk lpskan dia....

Subuh 2 NOVEMBER 2008 *seminggu lg ak nak SPM*, nurse gerak ak n my mom, sbb dia tgk adek nya respiration dah low sesangat..doc pun dah standby kt c2...dah la mamun bru bgn tido...ak leh ja tgk adek ak cm tu jaa..mcm xda ap2 nk jd...ak tgk dada dia y berombak tu smakin slow....and stop............time tu, mak ak terduduk..ak tgk ja adek ak ats ktil tu....so, air mata ni pun kluar laa....hhuhuhu...first tgk org mati....pastu nurse dtg la nk bersihkan arwah...ak pun tlong skali...tp, asyik nk nangis ja..nurse tu pun suh ak blah...pastu diorg pakaikan dia baju, baju bru weh...comel la plk ak tgk..slama dia kt hosp, x pnah pki bj pun sbb byk sgt wayar...bila tgk dia pki bju tu, rsa mcm dia hidup blik....sebaakkk wehh...i want my amirul back...


 Last raya dg amirul...baju melayu y pertama dan terakhir....msa ni bru umur 3 taon..tp bdan cm bdk tdika
selalu sakit..every month msuk hosp...
regular patient utk wad 5c hosp Taiping.


 ni bukan dia tdo, tp mata silay sbb kn chaya...kn chaya skit abes merah padam muka...putera lilin lah katakan


sblom ni dah wat entry psal amirul. tp xda gmba...ni ada bbrp pic arwah y ak still simpan..tp ni gmba lps dia kn sawan...gmba msa sihat walepat liat tu terdlete...


Mohamad Amirul Fahmi Nazri, angah rindu sgt2 kt mirul...nnt kta jmpa k...enjoy ur new life there...





         p/s: org 2 pun nma amirul gak...hurrmm...special jgk ker?? HAHAH

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